too bad your momma couldn't give you a good face.

do you know what i subconsciously do? well besides filling in "wow i can get sexual too" beats when i hear a telephone ring or bite my straws...
i make little mental lists of random facts about myself and people i know.
tonight while i lay in bed with cramps of a lifetime + nausea i'll attempt to type some down, most likely nothing will come since i am actually taking the time to do this but whatever. i'm too keyed up to sleep. so with josie and the pussycats playing in the background and deez nubz curled up at my side i begin.

+ i retain useless bits of information no one really cares about
+ i hate leading the way in public places, if we are somewhere i'll make you go in front of me
+ i walk looking down so i can see if i'll step on anyone's shoes
+ i love racist jokes
+ every time i catch a cold or my stomach hurts i think i am going to die, paranoid much?
+ when i people watch i wonder what it would be like to be married or be in a relationship with random people
+ i own a unhealthy amount of vhs tapes that a watch on a normal basis
+ i think plastic surgery will solve all my life problems
+ i've been flirting with vegetarianism since sixth grade, and in sixth grade i stopped being a vegetarian so i could eat a hot dog.
+ i like to claim that i loathe harry potter and twilight even though i have read all the books and at one point or another enjoyed them immensely.
+ i hate hot topic and avoid going in there at all costs
+ my favorite movie is constantly changing between movies and i can't keep track of them. right now it's josie and the pussycats.
+ when i see a person's handwriting and like it i try to mimic it, mostly with no success, into my own handwriting.
+ i'm probably not friends with half the people i know, i just tolerate them.
+ i hate confrontation
+ i wish i was creative, i'd trade almost anything for an artsy side
+ painting my room orange is one of the biggest regrets in my life
+ i have this theory that they don't let ugly people into CNU
+ because i lack originality once i see someone do something i really want to try it, i like being like characters in books and movies.
+i'm a notorious complainer
+ i read the weirdest books, i'm a geek when it comes to horror/scifi/fantasy/romance books
+i love fashion. i know for a fact that if i was thinner i could have a high chance of being best dressed at school, no lie.
+i pick up accents and phrases really quickly, i won't even mean to, but i'll start saying things other peoplel say without meaning it.
+ i am dead scared of the future
+ i panic when i drive somewhere by myself for the first time, even if it is down the road, i get all shaky and my stomach hurts.
+ i consider myself one of the worst drivers on the planet
+i never want to do anything or go anywhere by myself. Like school events, concerts, or club activities if one of my friends isn't going to be there, i'm not going.
+ i wish i was rich almost everyday in my life
+ i can't keep anything clean for over a week
+ i don't think any of the chorus kids can sing songs other than like classical, chorus like pieces.
+ i'm so insecure it's not even funny.
+ i pretend to be weirded out or appalled when one of my friends does something embarrassing in front of a higher level classmate, but i actually really don't care.
+ i hate having pictures being taken of me that show my bottom half.
+i get jealous really easily, it's quite pathetic.
+ i want a bunny so super bad.
+ i think i have more junior friends than senior friends and that bothers me.
+ i have this fear of being on boats.
+the scariest movie i have ever seen was Mars Attacks! which is actually a comedy. i saw the scene where the aliens turned an entire army into dust with laser guns and was scared for weeks.
+i have never seen a rocky movie, a rambo movie, a terminator movie, a karate kid movie, or star trek movie.
+ i learn how to do most things by youtube how to videos
+ if i don't have a class or lunch with someone i'll probably stop talking to them even if we were really close the previous year
+when i see a poorly dressed thin person i always think "if i had your body i would dress so much better, you don't deserve it" (mean much? ;/)
+ i like to maintain what my fan page count is, i never am a fan of over 50 things on facebook.
+ i'm a huge closet nerd, like really huge closet nerd. i had a runescape.
+ i like to consider myself a hopeless romantic.
+ i love thrifting for things, i could furnish a house with the things i find.
+ i love old, vintage, victorian things.
+ i could never be famous, i hate public speaking, but i like to think that someone would read one of my blogs or tweets and i'd have my own little group of fans... but not really at the same time?

yeah, that's like 45 minutes worth of blurbs and if i want to be able to wake up tomorrow at 620 to do my hair i need to sleep.
i mean it's 11:02. D: oh godd.

Hardin Day tomorrow. (: Spring Break Friday afternoon. (: