too bad your momma couldn't give you a good face.

do you know what i subconsciously do? well besides filling in "wow i can get sexual too" beats when i hear a telephone ring or bite my straws...
i make little mental lists of random facts about myself and people i know.
tonight while i lay in bed with cramps of a lifetime + nausea i'll attempt to type some down, most likely nothing will come since i am actually taking the time to do this but whatever. i'm too keyed up to sleep. so with josie and the pussycats playing in the background and deez nubz curled up at my side i begin.

+ i retain useless bits of information no one really cares about
+ i hate leading the way in public places, if we are somewhere i'll make you go in front of me
+ i walk looking down so i can see if i'll step on anyone's shoes
+ i love racist jokes
+ every time i catch a cold or my stomach hurts i think i am going to die, paranoid much?
+ when i people watch i wonder what it would be like to be married or be in a relationship with random people
+ i own a unhealthy amount of vhs tapes that a watch on a normal basis
+ i think plastic surgery will solve all my life problems
+ i've been flirting with vegetarianism since sixth grade, and in sixth grade i stopped being a vegetarian so i could eat a hot dog.
+ i like to claim that i loathe harry potter and twilight even though i have read all the books and at one point or another enjoyed them immensely.
+ i hate hot topic and avoid going in there at all costs
+ my favorite movie is constantly changing between movies and i can't keep track of them. right now it's josie and the pussycats.
+ when i see a person's handwriting and like it i try to mimic it, mostly with no success, into my own handwriting.
+ i'm probably not friends with half the people i know, i just tolerate them.
+ i hate confrontation
+ i wish i was creative, i'd trade almost anything for an artsy side
+ painting my room orange is one of the biggest regrets in my life
+ i have this theory that they don't let ugly people into CNU
+ because i lack originality once i see someone do something i really want to try it, i like being like characters in books and movies.
+i'm a notorious complainer
+ i read the weirdest books, i'm a geek when it comes to horror/scifi/fantasy/romance books
+i love fashion. i know for a fact that if i was thinner i could have a high chance of being best dressed at school, no lie.
+i pick up accents and phrases really quickly, i won't even mean to, but i'll start saying things other peoplel say without meaning it.
+ i am dead scared of the future
+ i panic when i drive somewhere by myself for the first time, even if it is down the road, i get all shaky and my stomach hurts.
+ i consider myself one of the worst drivers on the planet
+i never want to do anything or go anywhere by myself. Like school events, concerts, or club activities if one of my friends isn't going to be there, i'm not going.
+ i wish i was rich almost everyday in my life
+ i can't keep anything clean for over a week
+ i don't think any of the chorus kids can sing songs other than like classical, chorus like pieces.
+ i'm so insecure it's not even funny.
+ i pretend to be weirded out or appalled when one of my friends does something embarrassing in front of a higher level classmate, but i actually really don't care.
+ i hate having pictures being taken of me that show my bottom half.
+i get jealous really easily, it's quite pathetic.
+ i want a bunny so super bad.
+ i think i have more junior friends than senior friends and that bothers me.
+ i have this fear of being on boats.
+the scariest movie i have ever seen was Mars Attacks! which is actually a comedy. i saw the scene where the aliens turned an entire army into dust with laser guns and was scared for weeks.
+i have never seen a rocky movie, a rambo movie, a terminator movie, a karate kid movie, or star trek movie.
+ i learn how to do most things by youtube how to videos
+ if i don't have a class or lunch with someone i'll probably stop talking to them even if we were really close the previous year
+when i see a poorly dressed thin person i always think "if i had your body i would dress so much better, you don't deserve it" (mean much? ;/)
+ i like to maintain what my fan page count is, i never am a fan of over 50 things on facebook.
+ i'm a huge closet nerd, like really huge closet nerd. i had a runescape.
+ i like to consider myself a hopeless romantic.
+ i love thrifting for things, i could furnish a house with the things i find.
+ i love old, vintage, victorian things.
+ i could never be famous, i hate public speaking, but i like to think that someone would read one of my blogs or tweets and i'd have my own little group of fans... but not really at the same time?

yeah, that's like 45 minutes worth of blurbs and if i want to be able to wake up tomorrow at 620 to do my hair i need to sleep.
i mean it's 11:02. D: oh godd.

Hardin Day tomorrow. (: Spring Break Friday afternoon. (:

this is going to be the longest week ever.

it's only tuesday and spring break is so close yet so farrr.
i don't even want to go to senior breakfast really, but mother is making me. it is just going to suck bum anyways why bother.

and i'm sick which is making everything seven times more worse.

so to match my wishful thinking.

i could listen to him sing forever.

oh and this kid too. (:

this song is goregous.

did you ever have one of those days where you just wanted to die?

yeah, me too.
it's been happening a lot lately to say the least.

@therobertmorris

looooove.

no matter which way you go

no matter which way you stay
you're out of my mind
speaking of tegan and sara, they are on honda civic tour + paramore this july.
i might attend.

The mountains seceded. The light and dark depleted.
We lost Adakias, but regained our science.
Our world was finally reunited.
So this is my cue of where to leave you.
Now it's your story to retell and pass on.
Because an idea is only relevant if it's being thought upon.
So remember, never surrender.
'Cause the unrelenting constancy of love and hope
Will rescue and restore from any scope.

i must prepare

for the testing that will be going on at five today.
i have to mentally prepare myself for the extremely hot car ride that i will take to further my dream of attendin gcommunity college.

i really need to put some more effort into my future.

to correspond with my shitty mood

meet my shitty picks.
say hello to what i consider the worst.

"a human being is part of a whole,a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something seperated from the rest --a kind of optical illusion of his consiousness. The delusion is a kind of prison for us...our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."


"life is like riding a bicylce. to keep your balance, you must keep moving."

--albert einstein.

eating yogurt

after a refreshing leftover olive garden for lunch, i was sooo hungry. olive garden tastes good no moatter what i mean for real, the leftovers are just as good as the when you order them.

i'm updating to avoid doing prob and stat homework, really don't feel like doing that. don't feel like cleaning either and that is option two.

so i got two dresses yesterday. i'm pretty nervous slash pumped. i 'll probably need a shrug for the easter dress but whateverrr.

i'm am so freaking tired and i have the jason and the argonauts test tomorrow plus the results of the national latin exam D: ughh, nervous. i'm quite curious on how bad i did. I was only 100% sure of one answer -- Medea.

i should nap, but i probably won't.



happy ides of march, valete omnes (:

fuck my poor/fat life.

WINN.

love.

macbook pro

i love you so
oh macbook pro

first blog on the mac of wonder, goodness this thing is so amazing like AHH(mazing)
i'm so tempted to like, i don't know do something bold with it like get a video chat like device so i can talk to david on it or something, i mean i probably am (but no longer) the only person that has 1) never owned a webcam and b) seen the hangover.
i might be going to the movies tomorrow with manders if we are still on for that and then chinese and rita's later with the M squared. I'm glad I am back to hanging out with coggsworth outside of classes and school. and then later on i might be going to demi's birthday party, maybe. i'm uber paranoid that i won't know anyone and it'll be awkward, but one never knows do they?

sigh, i am so tired, still. i never got around to my nap that i told myself i would take... it basically turned into an extra long bath where I finished my latest bathtime novel.

you see, i have a book that i read only in the bathtub, usually romance novels because i am too ashamed to actually read them in public.

yeahh, i went there.

apparently

there was a bomb threat and the school library caught on fire today.
good thing i skipped ;D

just got back from VCU, i love richmond it was the first time i had ever been up there and i love the hustle andn bustle of the city fo realz. and i purchased a new sweatshirt.

i totally forgot about the announcement over the amazingness of the day and even though i had to spend it in the presense of nicholas, the poster child (D:) i really enjoyed myself.

there is a torrid in the lynhaven mall, holla. clothes shopping!
ANDDDDD
if i lose 20 pounds and get a semester A in Latin my mom says i can get A BUNNY!!! AJGGUHAGODighaig!!

I know the excitement! it will be hard, but i hope hope hope i can do it!
ANDDDD
I got my macbookpro today, god i love it so much, i haven't even turned it on but i love it so muchhh.!

sigh, good day. good day.

(:

dang it

toootally fell asleep at like 7 last night waiting for my parents to bring home dinner, the cooking network is the perfect lullaby for a tired teen.

plus the background fro all of them is gay pattinson, so there will only be one today.
oh, and exciting announcment when i get back from VCU today ! :D

oh god

i would be so poor if there was a torrid with a decent drivingn distance...

so i have found three prom dress possibilities.

i really love the rose one and the blue one.

i've even decided shoes and everything + hair + accessories.

i really am putting too much thought into this.
starting my exercise and diet routine tomorrow, well actually today with my cardio and eggie burger... calorie splurging on asian for dinner tonight sushi, yumm.

so here it goes.

flower dress


blue dress



i'm not even sure if i even like the tan one that much?

blaaaaaa
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

RIP LOGAN

MARCH 28, 2008 - MARCH 7, 2010

death and i are connected.

death is cold.
i am cold.

death is tired.
i am tired.

death is stiff.
i am stiff.

modern science

i put my faith in your capable hands.

it's time

for the monthly migrane, let the fun begin.

but on the plus side i get moe's for dinner because travis wouldn't stop talking about it in latin.

bring on the sweet burrito lovin'.