can't seem to get into blogging.
i'm going through i dry spot and i have no idea how long it will last.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
is it
just me that thinks fueled by ramen is slowly falling apart.
i mean a few of the bands are finally hitting it 'big' like cobra, this providince, paramore, etc... but a lot of them like panic!, the hush sound, phantom planet, and now cute is what we aim for, are losing members, going on 'vacation', or breaking up.
next: hopefully the cab.
EDIT: its only the bands that i enjoy that are calling it quits.
dammit.
i mean a few of the bands are finally hitting it 'big' like cobra, this providince, paramore, etc... but a lot of them like panic!, the hush sound, phantom planet, and now cute is what we aim for, are losing members, going on 'vacation', or breaking up.
next: hopefully the cab.
EDIT: its only the bands that i enjoy that are calling it quits.
dammit.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
and the wanting come in waves.
i wonder how many times i can listen the the decemberist's cd the hazards of love in one day?
i've been singing the decemberists randomly all week. they are just amazing. so it's going nice in the land of me. tomorrow i will FINALLYYYY get to see last saturday;s being human, i have been anxiously awaiting it since sunday when i had that 'OHSHIT' moment and with meggo in PA i can't borrow her DVR and watch it.
And next week mother has off so she and I are going down to OBX, i've never been in the summer before. I've only been in January with Katie and David for Katie's supahsweet sixteen. So it should be fun and maybe, just maybe I'll tan. :D
Gabriella's birthday party is on Saturday, which is on the same day as Meghan's get together with her really boring, in my opinion, robot-like boyfriend. sighh. oh well she'll just miss it.
So I have noticed I have really morbid music interests, well not creepy morbid but I listen to really upbeat but depressing music. It just hit me during The Rake's Song/Hazards of Love 3 (Revenge!). Oh dear, and Eli the Barrow Boy, and The Mariner's Revenge Song, oh my word. Happy Cobra Starship GO.
i've been singing the decemberists randomly all week. they are just amazing. so it's going nice in the land of me. tomorrow i will FINALLYYYY get to see last saturday;s being human, i have been anxiously awaiting it since sunday when i had that 'OHSHIT' moment and with meggo in PA i can't borrow her DVR and watch it.
And next week mother has off so she and I are going down to OBX, i've never been in the summer before. I've only been in January with Katie and David for Katie's supahsweet sixteen. So it should be fun and maybe, just maybe I'll tan. :D
Gabriella's birthday party is on Saturday, which is on the same day as Meghan's get together with her really boring, in my opinion, robot-like boyfriend. sighh. oh well she'll just miss it.
So I have noticed I have really morbid music interests, well not creepy morbid but I listen to really upbeat but depressing music. It just hit me during The Rake's Song/Hazards of Love 3 (Revenge!). Oh dear, and Eli the Barrow Boy, and The Mariner's Revenge Song, oh my word. Happy Cobra Starship GO.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
--
i'm tired of romance and hearing about people's relationships.
it could be jealousy
or it could be that everytime i do something people are blogging, twittering, bulletining, updating their status, im'ng me, or talking to me about how they are so in love or breaking up with someone.
agh, i'm going into overload.
it's annoying really.
it could be jealousy
or it could be that everytime i do something people are blogging, twittering, bulletining, updating their status, im'ng me, or talking to me about how they are so in love or breaking up with someone.
agh, i'm going into overload.
it's annoying really.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
oh blog.
100th Post! :D
but moving on. i wish this post would be more exciting and all and not pessimistic like it will be but I am typing this without my glasses and I am getting this huge headache and that will just be added to list giant list of why my day stunk.
i am going to get my glasses hold on.
betterr
so today started out like any normal sunday and while applying my eyeliner this morning i felt my phone go off; at first i thought it was a twitter update or facebook mobile (which i have now), but when it continued to buzz I took it out and answered the phone. It was Amanda. She was calling to say that rather than me picking her up after church so we could go see Paper Heart, we would have to postpone it to six in the evening. So mother and I got to church and were in our new church attire and were on time. and leave it to us, the first time we are ever on time, church is late. and katie wasn't there either. that should have been a sign that things were going to go downhill. The Solid Rock Bluegrass Band that I was reluctant to see, but was going to watch anyways ended up being plain old blue grass and 'solid rock' was just another way of saying 'Jesus' good greif. So Gabriella and I rekindled our friendship by talking while the weird people twiddled their banjo and when James arrived the three of us went to help set up for the potluck.
Sunday school was fine and afterwards Gabster came over and we went to food lion to pick up chips and dip for the potluck... GoshDarn I forgot to pick up my bowls. We jammed out to the new cobra album and headed back to church around 11:40 to fix our stuff for potluck.
Potluck was fine except for the fact that just about everything had meat in it so I ate about six different kinds of pasta salad. Oh and creme puffs. Blah Blah Blah. I headed over to Meghan's we went to the mall to get her hair cut saw Sammy Sam Sam and Caroline Bi in the food court. While walking to the hair cuttery Amanda called and said that she had to cancel our movies because she had gotten upset with her sister and said some really mean things. I was bummed, of course but she said we could try again next weekend or the one after so I stayed optimistic... We came home, was bored went to 7-11 and the thrift store and looked around headed over to my house, watched keeping up with the Kardashians for like two hours then I took Meghan home.
On the way to Meghan's Roxanna sent me a text saying that no one was at youth and she was bored, she asked if I would come. In short: I did. Everyone seemed surprised to see me, even Andy. We played capture the flag and I was assigned to watch the jail. Benny's ex was in there and adrianna and tristian and benny eventually came in there too, and they kept trying to run away and they would always try to break free. I hate that lack of respect, but I quickly got over it and resumed my post. Now this next part makes me seem like a bad person so you can skip it if you like... Well the girls were talking about something or other about getting their nails done... seventh graders don't need to get their nails done, I mean really? And Benny's Ex said something along the lines of "I called but you never answered your phone" in this really snippy high voice and Adrianna commented on how 'adorable' she sounded. I joked and said 'no, she sounded vicious.' This little girl walks over to me and says that she may be short but she could kicked my butt.
And that was the metaphorical straw that broke the camel's back, in which i am the camel. Now I know I could have taken the higher road and not called her a 'little bitch' but she is a bossy, controling, mean little person and I couldn't help myself okay? phew. glad to get that off my chest. I tried to leave, but andy stopped me and said I wasn't allowed to leave so I, in tears, called my mother and let her "sign" me out.
Gosh, I hate what this youth has become.
I really do.
But Andy, I think he really cared that I was upset. And that lead to the epiphany I had in the bath, that he isn't a horrible person and I don't really give him credit for what he does. I know it's a little late to notice that now that I have officially quit youth, but it was okay for me to finally get that i guess? I mean he'll never be like Jim was to me and I may not me able to trust him and talk to him like Jim but the thing is he isn't Jim and I need to stop comparing the two. Andy's trying and I guess that counts for something.
I don't know. But I'm tired and my head hurts and I need to check up on my restaurant city[ (: ] and such so goodnight, I guess? I'm just ready for the day to be done with.
but moving on. i wish this post would be more exciting and all and not pessimistic like it will be but I am typing this without my glasses and I am getting this huge headache and that will just be added to list giant list of why my day stunk.
i am going to get my glasses hold on.
betterr
so today started out like any normal sunday and while applying my eyeliner this morning i felt my phone go off; at first i thought it was a twitter update or facebook mobile (which i have now), but when it continued to buzz I took it out and answered the phone. It was Amanda. She was calling to say that rather than me picking her up after church so we could go see Paper Heart, we would have to postpone it to six in the evening. So mother and I got to church and were in our new church attire and were on time. and leave it to us, the first time we are ever on time, church is late. and katie wasn't there either. that should have been a sign that things were going to go downhill. The Solid Rock Bluegrass Band that I was reluctant to see, but was going to watch anyways ended up being plain old blue grass and 'solid rock' was just another way of saying 'Jesus' good greif. So Gabriella and I rekindled our friendship by talking while the weird people twiddled their banjo and when James arrived the three of us went to help set up for the potluck.
Sunday school was fine and afterwards Gabster came over and we went to food lion to pick up chips and dip for the potluck... GoshDarn I forgot to pick up my bowls. We jammed out to the new cobra album and headed back to church around 11:40 to fix our stuff for potluck.
Potluck was fine except for the fact that just about everything had meat in it so I ate about six different kinds of pasta salad. Oh and creme puffs. Blah Blah Blah. I headed over to Meghan's we went to the mall to get her hair cut saw Sammy Sam Sam and Caroline Bi in the food court. While walking to the hair cuttery Amanda called and said that she had to cancel our movies because she had gotten upset with her sister and said some really mean things. I was bummed, of course but she said we could try again next weekend or the one after so I stayed optimistic... We came home, was bored went to 7-11 and the thrift store and looked around headed over to my house, watched keeping up with the Kardashians for like two hours then I took Meghan home.
On the way to Meghan's Roxanna sent me a text saying that no one was at youth and she was bored, she asked if I would come. In short: I did. Everyone seemed surprised to see me, even Andy. We played capture the flag and I was assigned to watch the jail. Benny's ex was in there and adrianna and tristian and benny eventually came in there too, and they kept trying to run away and they would always try to break free. I hate that lack of respect, but I quickly got over it and resumed my post. Now this next part makes me seem like a bad person so you can skip it if you like... Well the girls were talking about something or other about getting their nails done... seventh graders don't need to get their nails done, I mean really? And Benny's Ex said something along the lines of "I called but you never answered your phone" in this really snippy high voice and Adrianna commented on how 'adorable' she sounded. I joked and said 'no, she sounded vicious.' This little girl walks over to me and says that she may be short but she could kicked my butt.
And that was the metaphorical straw that broke the camel's back, in which i am the camel. Now I know I could have taken the higher road and not called her a 'little bitch' but she is a bossy, controling, mean little person and I couldn't help myself okay? phew. glad to get that off my chest. I tried to leave, but andy stopped me and said I wasn't allowed to leave so I, in tears, called my mother and let her "sign" me out.
Gosh, I hate what this youth has become.
I really do.
But Andy, I think he really cared that I was upset. And that lead to the epiphany I had in the bath, that he isn't a horrible person and I don't really give him credit for what he does. I know it's a little late to notice that now that I have officially quit youth, but it was okay for me to finally get that i guess? I mean he'll never be like Jim was to me and I may not me able to trust him and talk to him like Jim but the thing is he isn't Jim and I need to stop comparing the two. Andy's trying and I guess that counts for something.
I don't know. But I'm tired and my head hurts and I need to check up on my restaurant city[ (: ] and such so goodnight, I guess? I'm just ready for the day to be done with.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
everytime
i eat something other than cheerio's my stomache does backflips.
i think it is a sign from god that he wants me to carry on with my anorexia diet.
i can live off vitamins, cheerio's, and water.
yes i can.
i think it is a sign from god that he wants me to carry on with my anorexia diet.
i can live off vitamins, cheerio's, and water.
yes i can.
so, to show how lazy i am
i will just copy and paste an email i wrote to david describing my weekend. why, because, well i don't know. so here it goes:
"so i pulled a hannah montana and got the best of both worlds yesterday and went to busch and went shopping and my mom and i spent like 300$ on clothes and shoes. good gosh. but i haven't gone clothes shopping for school like that since seventh grade and my mom was really excited and stuff so i didn't feel too bad. and yesterday was soooo hot, like there weren't that many lines at busch to wait for because everyone was in the line for air conditioning or water rides so we lived on the edge and rode just about everything. we even went on the log flume i had the back seat all to myself which was good... and bad because there was no one there to block some of the water so my jeans were wet the rest of the time... i think they were still wet when i got home too. but they had their concert thing and katie mj and i got free stuff and left because ohmygosh eww they were so old and wearing leather pants. i'm thinking midlife crisis fo realzzz."
and while at busch i was texting meghan and she wanted to come over becasue her dad and brother were arguing and she couldn't take it so i picked her up and she came over. not much but still so on monday meggo and i went to lunch and then headed over to the theater and i FINALLY got to see 500 days of summer. it was amazing, beyond amazing actually. monday i stayed over at meghan's and on tuesday her uncle and his family came over and we spent the day laughing at me fail at grand theft auto. I'll never trust matt when he tells me to push the y button ever again. btw, it made me jump out of my helicopter. D: haha. then meghan, favorite matt, snug, and i went shopping and i picked up the new cobra album. it was nice. until i got sick and mama coggs took me home.
greasy food was never my forte anyways.
but it tasted fantastic anyways.
and i was reading seventeen magazine because i enjoy it was like trend to try darker hair and i was like how can my hair get any darkerrr. D: and i am still debating about getting my hair cut. do i want cheeky fringe? ( old gregg reference, ftw! ) or do i want to keep my hair the way it is? this is why i don't make decisions.
i was thinking something like this... --->
haha just kidding. i was thinking more along the lines of 60's haircut with blunt bangs like... --->
sorry my paint skills aren't that impressive.
friday is Jen's shower and I haven't gotten her a wedding present yet!
i need gift ideas do you have any?
"so i pulled a hannah montana and got the best of both worlds yesterday and went to busch and went shopping and my mom and i spent like 300$ on clothes and shoes. good gosh. but i haven't gone clothes shopping for school like that since seventh grade and my mom was really excited and stuff so i didn't feel too bad. and yesterday was soooo hot, like there weren't that many lines at busch to wait for because everyone was in the line for air conditioning or water rides so we lived on the edge and rode just about everything. we even went on the log flume i had the back seat all to myself which was good... and bad because there was no one there to block some of the water so my jeans were wet the rest of the time... i think they were still wet when i got home too. but they had their concert thing and katie mj and i got free stuff and left because ohmygosh eww they were so old and wearing leather pants. i'm thinking midlife crisis fo realzzz."
and while at busch i was texting meghan and she wanted to come over becasue her dad and brother were arguing and she couldn't take it so i picked her up and she came over. not much but still so on monday meggo and i went to lunch and then headed over to the theater and i FINALLY got to see 500 days of summer. it was amazing, beyond amazing actually. monday i stayed over at meghan's and on tuesday her uncle and his family came over and we spent the day laughing at me fail at grand theft auto. I'll never trust matt when he tells me to push the y button ever again. btw, it made me jump out of my helicopter. D: haha. then meghan, favorite matt, snug, and i went shopping and i picked up the new cobra album. it was nice. until i got sick and mama coggs took me home.
greasy food was never my forte anyways.
but it tasted fantastic anyways.
and i was reading seventeen magazine because i enjoy it was like trend to try darker hair and i was like how can my hair get any darkerrr. D: and i am still debating about getting my hair cut. do i want cheeky fringe? ( old gregg reference, ftw! ) or do i want to keep my hair the way it is? this is why i don't make decisions.
i was thinking something like this... --->
haha just kidding. i was thinking more along the lines of 60's haircut with blunt bangs like... --->
sorry my paint skills aren't that impressive.friday is Jen's shower and I haven't gotten her a wedding present yet!
i need gift ideas do you have any?
Saturday, August 8, 2009
boom boom clap
so i got my stuff back after practically biting my mother's head off. i don't care if i look stupid leaving the house, it's wasn't like i was going out in public or anything... it was meghan's house. but now that order is now restored in my life i'll do the tedious task of clicking and unclicking all of my father's music off itunes, putting my stuff on my ipod, and then changing everything back to my dad's stuff. yeah, it is quite monotonous. ahhh. (:
so i don't think i will be doing anything today besides going to see amanda. (: :D she is selling glowsticks or something at city center or port warwick or something. i 'm not to thrilled about having to see hotel for dogs. outside. but mabe it won't be completely dark and i can tan(:
but we all know how that will end up...
no tan.
ehhh that's about all just a quick update about the plans for the future... i'm strangely craving a veggie sub from dino's for some reason.
mabe that will be in the future as well? baha.
so i don't think i will be doing anything today besides going to see amanda. (: :D she is selling glowsticks or something at city center or port warwick or something. i 'm not to thrilled about having to see hotel for dogs. outside. but mabe it won't be completely dark and i can tan(:
but we all know how that will end up...
no tan.
ehhh that's about all just a quick update about the plans for the future... i'm strangely craving a veggie sub from dino's for some reason.
mabe that will be in the future as well? baha.
i have managed
to lose my ipod after spending numerous hours transferring files and getting cd's. whereisit?! Gahhh.
it has to be here somewhere.
... oh and if you haven't seen the movie clue. you should see it.
it's good.
it has to be here somewhere.
... oh and if you haven't seen the movie clue. you should see it.
it's good.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
oh decemberists.
their albums have been getting me through a lot lately. it, besides owl city, has been the only thing playing on my ipod for the last two weeks. i'm still quite frustrated that i cannot get my hands on the new owl city album yet. target claims to have it, but wherever i go, whether it hampton or newport news it is nowhere to be found.
oh humbug. well tomorrow meghan, sarah, and i are going to the SIA final performance and I am rather excited because jesi (jessie?) will be there and i haven't seen her in eons. and she called today, actually, to tell me about chad sugg's new books. amazing, eh? (:
I've also been on mass cleaning sprees and if it wasn't for me cleaning it would be rather disgusting. if you catch my drift? :/ ? mmm, maybe not. and twitter is starting to bug me, scratch that, gabriella on twitter is starting to bug me. she updates too much so i took her off mobile updates, so it's all good now.
and i am almost done with fast food nation... almost done with part one of fast food nation. i really want to see that movie, but it, like the owl city album, is just hard to get a hold of. i'll find it eventually, but because of it i have given up soda for the most part. it is soo bad for you and i never really understood that until now, which bad because my mother is a dietitian for goodness' sakes. but only diet soda if any. and i might be going back to vegetarian, and i can almost imagine you rolling your eyes at me thinking internally "oh god not this again." but i'll try to stick with it. pinky swear.
that's all really.
nothing exciting ever happens to me.
oh humbug. well tomorrow meghan, sarah, and i are going to the SIA final performance and I am rather excited because jesi (jessie?) will be there and i haven't seen her in eons. and she called today, actually, to tell me about chad sugg's new books. amazing, eh? (:
I've also been on mass cleaning sprees and if it wasn't for me cleaning it would be rather disgusting. if you catch my drift? :/ ? mmm, maybe not. and twitter is starting to bug me, scratch that, gabriella on twitter is starting to bug me. she updates too much so i took her off mobile updates, so it's all good now.
and i am almost done with fast food nation... almost done with part one of fast food nation. i really want to see that movie, but it, like the owl city album, is just hard to get a hold of. i'll find it eventually, but because of it i have given up soda for the most part. it is soo bad for you and i never really understood that until now, which bad because my mother is a dietitian for goodness' sakes. but only diet soda if any. and i might be going back to vegetarian, and i can almost imagine you rolling your eyes at me thinking internally "oh god not this again." but i'll try to stick with it. pinky swear.
that's all really.
nothing exciting ever happens to me.
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