i haven't felt inspired lately;

but i thought, what the hay?
how has my week been, i talked to david which totally did a 180 on my mood. i was feeling so melancholly today, all i did really was take tests, read, and sulk. even jesi seemed weird.
things are still awkward between us, but you wouldn't know anything about that since i have becom so lazy on my posting, and i don't feel like posting her and gabriella's business all up on the internet. but yes, back to the awkwardness, i will try to work on that tonigiht if she is at the "youth council" meeting.
it still seems lame to me. the meeting and said things.
i'm listening to a britney spears/durden / hush sound playlist of euphoric proportions.
i want to do something interesting today, because it was just so beauiful despite the constant gusts of wind constantly messing up my hair, and tomorrow it is going to be like 40. I want to take in every benfit. I'd ride my bike to church rather than drive, but to circumstances not under my control, i can't. I don't even know if i have enough energy to search for it in my garage, which shows some negative aspects of my lifestyle.(:
yesterday was nice also, i put on my flip flops and waslked to gabriella's and we headed over to mcdonalds and such. and then amanda called(: i hadn't physically heard her voice in so long which seems lame to say even as i am typing.
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i hate not having fingernails, which is random to say, but it's true. i have been stressing all week and then next week is the english SOL which if i don't pass, i might not graduate. and yeah my nice finally decent looking nails are now nubs. ahh, but they'll grow back.
but yeah,
i don't know when my next post will be,
but hopefully
it won't be too long away.

and just when you think it is getting worse;

they drop the boulder.

dear paula abdul,

stay away from the up-do's.

quatro

well, mother has been sick, and i have been busy. so i haven't posted in like what? four days.
shame. considering all four days are quite on the interesting side, fo realzz.

friday i took a mental health day because my lame-o forum thing kept messing up on me and i was all like wahh and my dad was just like fuck it and stay home.

... so i did. missing yet another day of ap english.
and then saturday i saw coraline which was amazingggg. i do think the book was better, though. they changed waaaayyy too much, like twilight, but at least they kept the plot line and then i hung out with paige, valerie, kayleigh, bridget, and assorted others whom i had never met. It basically boiled down to paige and i driving around and then paige, valerie, and i driving. because when kids start pukin' out they alcohallz we be leavin'. haha, we dropped valerie off at like 10:30 and picked up scott who is an amazing person. we headed back and this drunk girl kept hanging on scott and telling him she loved him... it was funny. well, not to him. And there was this really freaky kid named jesus, yeah. he's a real frowner.
at like four in the morning paige, bridget, scott, and i went down to paige's mom's salon and washed my hurr and blowdryed it. we didn't break in though, paige had a key. and then we just chilled at the kid's house until i had to leave for church.
whichhhh
was full of the same people, with the same problems, and the same boring old lessons. and then i like slept the entire day until youth where i saw dane(:
mind you i normally see him multiple times a week, but i hadn't seen him since tuesday. he is very hard to get in touch with sometimes.

but yeahhhhh, i forgot to talk about how i got to see coraline.!
it was like 3:10ish and we were standing in this ginormo movie ticket line, when the gabster and i noticed that our movie was soldl out, and we were like super " D: " and stuff and the lady behind us gave my dad something, so i thought it was just a coupon or something, but it was two tickets to see coraline! :D the guy standing by her had given her his 6 tickets because his family never shoed and she had four people so she gave the other two tickets to us.(:
it was amazing. i'm telling you it's my karma. it's totally gone up since i stopped eating cows(:

and today hardin jacked my phone cause shlickenmeyer texted me in latin, and my phone was in my desk so everyone heard it vibrating, but on the plus dad is getting it as i write, i thought i wouldn't have gotten it back for like two weeks.

if that had happened i think i would have died. haha.
i'm going to go clean my room now.
but enough about me how are you?

nothing

can sum up how amazing my day was.
really.
it's really been awhile since i have been so... happy?
i didn't have to wait forever for the bus
i finished my homework and makeup before the bell
miss harvell wasn't there so miss berryman let us use our textbooks on the quiz
i got my schedule switched back to what it was
i got a b in latin(:
and instead of going to ap english i got to go to history again.(:!
more laskeee.
then i left early and the orthodontist can fix my retainer and then it started snowing.
mother and i then spent like forfever in the mall
ahhhh, that happiness was so overdue.
and david logged onto myspace, he's still in hawaii, but at least i know he isn't dead.


i feel infinite.

hmm;

i don't know what i was expecting, but oh well.
i'm on caffine overload and my head and stomache hurt like mad.

did you know at taco bell you can substitute beans for beef on the tacos.
brilliant.

mhm, it's been like... uhm, well like four days without beef.
and things are really looking up.
karma-wise, of course.
i have my new phone of which i am slowly getting numbers for.
i'm getting a new card to put my music on
i am going to go see backseat goodbye. i'm excited.
we don't have school the 16th.
and i am going to turn in my guidance request tomorrow.

david is still in hawaii though, i really miss him.
he needs to go back to guam where he can get on a computer.

because, i don't know him being at a doctor for that long, it just worries me.
but worr[y]ing? about it makes my stomach worse.
like what is that disease where wou think you are sick or are really stressed out and it happens and you get sick? pshychosomatic? no that doesn't sound right. oh welllll.

i'm having a thing for kevin devine lately, i guess since i'm more into what's going on his music has more meaning... i like it.

oh and i am getting my retainer put together tomorrow since i found the other piece, i'm thrilled.


but if you care; here is some kevin devine for you to enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNDusCVqKg8

valentines day.

two weeks away.
i want this:



and this also



now all i have to do is convince my parents(:
pahaha.

phelps, i am micheal phelps

and i smoke smoke smoke
and i smoke smoke smoke.

D:

whaaaaaa?


micheal phelps noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
moving on.
i found the other half of my retainer.
snaps for me.