the sporting life.

hello goodbye.

2010-07-15T11:12:00.000-04:00

vicktoriahhhh.tumblr.com

i love

2010-07-13T14:35:00.002-04:00

accomplishing something i figured impossible
being in the water
singling songs wrong purposefully
baby animals
getting lost in a novel
fantasizing about the perfect future
an animal's unconditional love
being pale
making people laugh
listening
the beauty of nature
vintage things
polaroids
the feeling of being loved
swingsets
listening to an album for the first time
love songs
happy endings
staying up late to finish that last chapter of a book
learning about the past
being surrounded by friends
helping better the world
laying at night going over the day's events
dreaming
being a hopeless romantic
musicals
using pick up lines
reading in the bath
having a song for every mood
not acting my age
lying and not being caught
reflecting on the past
comfortable silences
petty disagreements
reading bumper stickers
making pictures out of clouds
driving with my windows down
making good decisions
good hair days
being pleasantly surprised
my best friends
unexpected occurrences of the positive variety
being inspired
making lists in my head
getting letters
sincerity
etsy.com
popculture
being vain
letting go
herbal tea
making up excuses
making a fool of mself amongst strangers
children
using latin
walking in other people's footsteps
the thought of being in love
being scared
learning things about myself
song covers that are better than the original
making mixed cd's
going on road trips with friends
when people see something that reminds them of me
hating things
wise words
chivalry
visiting new places
old movies
when clothes fit
when things go my way for a change
geekery
conformity
living easy

i lead a pointless existence.

2010-07-12T13:51:00.000-04:00

at the bottom.

2010-07-09T11:44:00.000-04:00

Cause I make little lies and then I pull them apart
Think something dark's living down in my heart
And if I wanted to die before I got old
I should've started some years ago digging that hole

Well I carry this box to the proper place
And when I lower it down
I let it you fade away
I hope that you would do this for me
I'd serve you drugs on a silver plate
If I thought it would help you get away
I hope that you would do this for me

A deer that a hunter shot in the heart
Some dogs that got hit by cars
All came to spill their guts
And we spoke
About the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
And which psalms we had loved the most
And then we all turned to dirt
And dust

Some men die under the mountain just looking for gold
Some die looking for a hand to hold

@amandabringsjoy

2010-07-09T09:59:00.002-04:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: bottled water

2. Last phone call: some asian guy

3. Last text message: my phone's dead, sorry.

4. Last song you listened to: curse of the virgin canvas - alesana.

5. Last time you cried: monday or tuesday, julian sacraficed himself to save jenny, thus disproving his own theory that everyone and everything is evil. ahh, i'm tearing up thinking about it.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: why make the same mistake twice?

7. Been cheated on: negative.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: i try not to regret my past actions.

9. Lost someone special: at the time i thought so.

10. Been depressed: on many occaisions.

11. Been drunk and threw up: sorry, i don't drink.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. gray.

13. yellow.

14. blue green.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: indeed.

16. Fallen out of love: you need to fall in love first.

17. Laughed until you cried: never done that, ever.

18. Met someone who changed you: no.

19. Found out who your true friends were: no.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: yeah, but it's whatever.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: i did.

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: a great deal.

23. How many kids do you want? at this moment, zero.

24. Do you have any pets: dos cats and uno lapin.

25. Do you want to change your name: i used to when i was youner.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: manders came over and we had fajitas and saw princess and the frog.

27. What time did you wake up: 9:45

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: nothing, i don't like the idea of the future.

30. Last time you saw your Mother: last night.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i want to be thin, fit and beautiful, but that seems highly unlikely to ever happen.

32. What are you listening to right now: the artist - alesana. i'm listening to the album.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? uhm, yes. my uncle's name is tommy, it counts.

34. Who is getting on your nerves now: a handful of people.

35. Most visited webpage: pathetically, facebook.

36. Whats your real name: victoria

37. Nicknames: vicky, vicksterr, ritchson.

38. Relationship Status: single.

39. Zodiac sign: sagittarius.

40. Male or female?: female.

41. Primary School?: hollomans.

42. Secondary School?: ghettosleeve.

43. High school/college?: menchville. thomas nelson, because i'm a failue at life.

44. Hair colour: dark brown/black.

45. Long or short: it would seen long to some people, but i think it's disgustingly short.

46. Height: five nine.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: i do indeed.

48: What do you like about yourself?: my nose, and my sparkling personality.

49. Piercings: i'm too much of a poor pansy to go through with it.

50: Tattoos: i'll get one eventually.

51. Righty or lefty: righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: i had my arm turned around or something like that.

53. First piercing: ears.

54. First best friend online: i only add peopole i know.

55. First sport you joined: swimming.

56. First vacation: cali.

58. First pair of trainers: i have reebocks, in my closet now.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: a vitamin.

60. Drinking: nothing.

61. I'm about to: do laundry.

62. Listening to: we've been over this. the emptiness album.

63. Waiting for: nothing.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: possibly.

65. Get married?: it's a fantasy of mine.

66. Career: teachahh.

OPPOSITE SEX :
67. Lips or eyes: lips.

68. Hugs or kisses: i find hugs more reassuring.

69. Shorter or taller: taller, most definitley.

70. Older or Younger: i've always wanted to be a cougar ;)

71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: haha, arms are good i guess.

73. Sensitive or loud: what about a happy medium.

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: you could say that.

77. Drank hard liquor: yes.

78. Lost glasses/contact: all the freakin time.

79. Sex on first date: no thank you.

80. Broken someone's heart: i think i have, but he got over it.

82. Been arrested: no.

83. Turned someone down: yes.

84. Cried when someone died: isn't that a must.

85. Fallen for a friend: ughhhh, yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: not always.

88. Love at first sight: no.

89. Heaven: i'm not sure.

90. Santa Claus: yes.

91. Kiss on the first date: kosher kissing.

92. Angels: you mean spirits? yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: too bad i'm not salacious.

95. Did you sing today?: yes, right now actually.

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: no.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: i'd re-do everything.

98. The moment you would choose to relive?: i don't know, my life isn't that great.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: honestly, yes.

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths?: not on facebook, blog yes. but obviously not.

beautiful.

2010-07-07T15:42:00.002-04:00

i recommend it whole-heartily.

oh people on youtube.

2010-07-07T10:33:00.002-04:00

viewer one: "this band sucks"

viewer two: "shut the fuck up and go watch twilight and listen to one republic bitch."

meet all i listen to.

2010-07-06T13:13:00.005-04:00

1.

2.

3.

4.

5.

6.

everything you conceal is revealed on your canvas

2010-07-06T11:06:00.002-04:00

You painted me in pastel,
colors that don't tell of any boldness.
That's the way you'd love to see me:
so delicate, so weak, so little purpose.

But your eyes are drawn of charcoal
they're black, they're so cold, they're so imperfect.
Because they see a sleeping world,
where waking isn't worth it.

oh hai fail tan

2010-07-04T22:05:00.000-04:00

i have you.

NOOOOO.

2010-07-01T14:52:00.001-04:00

lol

2010-06-28T17:26:00.002-04:00

nananananana hey jude

2010-06-26T19:43:00.002-04:00

i miss pennsylvania already and i want to go back. it seems so odd being alone when i am so used to having at least three people in the room with me at all times. i loved getting close to everyone and i loved the feeling of helping people out even if all we did was scrape paint for like 4 days straight. i love the mountains it is so nice there and peaceful and really makes me appreciate the rural areas just a little bit more. i miss so much like wading in the lake and playing frisbee with the guys and laughing in the mini vans over jokes that really don't matter i miss the amazing weather and the late night talks. i miss being so close to hannah, bethany, jessie, roxanna, steven, sean, and mitchell. I even, dare i say it? Miss the giant monster of a hill i had to climb every time i wanted to go somewhere.

there is so much temptation down here and i need to hold on to what little faith i have gained to get me through this. i want to get up early and continue to eat healthy. i want to continue these morning walks. i want to get fit and thin.

i hope i can keep up with my faith. i really hope i can.

here's to team effort 2010... this one is for you.

i am loving this first week of summer.

2010-06-19T18:31:00.002-04:00

i mean oh goodness. so much love.
not tripping when i walked across the stage, hanging out with joshua, going to dc and obx, movie day with caleb and steele was amazing.
then last night was the lock in at church and although it sucked later on in the night from 8-11 and then 530-830 were amazing. and then today was katie/brittany/dane/ian/ian's twin's graduation celebration which started out awkward, but developed into something amazing.

i have to pack for the pennsylvania trip we leave tomorrow bright and early at 930 (: then car trip con stevey freshhh, karate kid, foxy roxy, and bobbay. haha, i love how i have a nickname for all of them (:

and theeeen the weekend after i get back - oouter banks weekend with BEST FRIEND AMANDA! :D

i like how this summer is turning out so far.

2010-06-17T11:03:00.001-04:00

today: movie day with caleb and steelio.
tomorrow: ditch lamerle, laundry, pack, help out at lock in
saturday: graduation party at brittany's.
sunday: LELAVE FOR PA.

i love busy days.

2010-06-14T13:51:00.004-04:00

bieber or die

2010-06-14T13:36:00.002-04:00

DONE.

2010-06-12T22:18:00.000-04:00

2010-06-03T16:35:00.003-04:00

you don't see what you possess
a beauty calm and clear
it floods the sky and blurs the darkness
like a chandalier
i will set a mirror up
to face the purple sky
you will see your beauty every moment that you rise.

2010-06-02T21:44:00.001-04:00

Girl One: "every cigarette you smoke takes off fifteen seconds from your life."
Girl Two: "go ahead and light it then."

these kids are so cute.

2010-06-02T19:47:00.001-04:00

strange things happen in the night time hours

2010-06-02T19:21:00.002-04:00

OH HEY
didn't see you there.
just sitting here flossing.

oh guess what?
i only have four days of school left.

oh hell yes.

amazing cover, just saying.

2010-05-31T17:37:00.003-04:00

sometimes the covers are better than the originals.

i'm slowly

2010-05-30T21:11:00.001-04:00

starting to think that sundays are the best day of the week.
really, i can't wait until summer.

LOL

2010-05-30T08:41:00.002-04:00

dear diary,

2010-05-29T19:42:00.002-04:00

mood: ~~apathetic~~ super excited.

stefani and buster and the kids might be coming down for my graduation. hopefully she can get off work and scrounge up enough money for lame gas. oh the excitement. oh the excitement!

love, me.

no lie.

2010-05-28T18:29:00.001-04:00

one of the best books i have ever read.

we are not the kids we used to be - stop wishing for yesterday.

2010-05-27T21:40:00.003-04:00

i kind of really wish david was here right now.
i miss him, yet i never talk to him.
i suck at friendship, i really do.
it's just some things are easier said in person than on a phone or in an email. it's nice to have a shoulder to cry on than comforting words. it's nice to have a pat on the back rather than a sad face and a wish of being there. it's nice to have a hug when everything you know is falling apart.

meet: cool vampires.

2010-05-27T17:02:00.010-04:00

Do me this solid If you would pretty lady.

2010-05-26T17:47:00.001-04:00

i swear to shake it up if you swear to listen.

2010-05-26T09:36:00.005-04:00

different, in a good way.
i envy and aspire for.

2010-05-23T15:43:00.005-04:00

i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish

i want
i want
i want
i want

i hope
i hope
i hope
i hope

i need
i need
i need
i need

you've changed...
i've changed...
you wish...
i wish...
you want...
i want...
you hope...
i hope...
you need...
i need... some time to think things through.

2010-05-22T13:16:00.002-04:00

why can't i just chop all my fat off.
i'd give anything to look like them.

loooooove.

2010-05-17T20:19:00.000-04:00

i'm gonna take you for worse or better.

2010-05-16T21:15:00.001-04:00

meet, my current song obsession.

this weekend was beyond amazing.

2010-05-16T21:00:00.001-04:00

that is all.
(:

2010-05-06T16:10:00.004-04:00

probably the grandest gaga performance yet.
favoriteee.

"just want your cigarette love... alejandro."

currently IN LOVE with this song.

2010-04-30T17:05:00.001-04:00

i wish my life was like the princess diaries.

2010-04-28T20:45:00.002-04:00

and that i have this grandma i didn't know about that is the queen of some country i have never heard of. And then she will give me 6000$ to fix my car and then we'll take a car ride around newport news and i would take her to the living museum to see the see otters and feed her rita's. i would then get a super make over that hopefully included plastic surgery and then i'll end up looking gorgeous like anne hathaway or something. yes, just keep thinking that victoria.

random fact.

2010-04-25T21:59:00.002-04:00

+ i hate anything that is green flavored.
+ i lose my phone charger on a weekly basis.
+ i love purses because they are the one thing that is truly one size fits all.
+ half the time i'm only wearing one contact because i am too lazy to put both in.
+ as soon as i get something new from i store i have to use it.
+ i hate pumping my own gas, but refuse to move to new jersey.
+ i'm never really satisfied or completely happy ever.
+ i don't think i am good at anything.
+ i hate aeroplanes.
+ i'm not friends with half the people i associate myself with.

-______-

2010-04-21T17:39:00.002-04:00

it must be true, there a chart.

2010-04-20T19:27:00.001-04:00

2010-04-20T10:27:00.001-04:00

and i don't give a good shit if you're lonesome.

haha, cougar.

2010-04-13T15:50:00.003-04:00

spring break = good. (:

2010-04-11T18:24:00.002-04:00

filled with amanda, zoo's, aquariums, dance clubs, frisbees, shopping, manchester orchestra and the features, clash of the titans, cheetos ( so many cheetos), findong my phone, mexicans and their food,tanning, reading, pretty dresses and pretty people, and today spring break concluded with a trip to busch with bff katie, hannah, and mj (:

off to learn something about government and eating my mei fun and sushi!

sounds fun? yess.

wash your hands clean, lord knows they're filthy blackened with greed.

2010-04-09T14:06:00.000-04:00

lateee

2010-04-08T09:24:00.002-04:00

2010-04-07T23:21:00.001-04:00

i swaear to god

2010-04-07T22:01:00.002-04:00

if i didn't get any darker today i'm going to freak.
i spent basically all day outside.
i should have worn shorts to work on my legs though, but i didn't want to risk a chafe. no one likes being chafed.

liars and lovers come back with me, we're gonna make a scene.

2010-04-07T09:47:00.003-04:00

mother and i managed of course to get lost on the way to the norva but that isn't the main issue here, i mean really norfolk is a confusing place with all the road construction and stuff. SOOO, we got there and O Brother started up the line up, and they, as in the main singer and the tambourine player, were sooo cute and precious. The singer looked exactly like David... well if David wore skinny jeans... but he had him to a T with the boring generic gray shirt! :D He had the sweetest voice when he talked, but when he sung, oh the angst and deep throatal screaming. And then like half the band had longer hair than i did there was a mexican and an asian and they always had their heads down so it looked like the Ring... and then they would all durn to face the drummer when they would play like they were paying homage to him. haha (:

i don't t=know the name of the second band but I do know that they were angsty, they were british, and they were shirtless. haha, the ginger was sooo pale. (: they were kind of mean, but they were irish so i guess that makes it all right?

And then the features came out <33 oh happy day. they are so amazing live. My mom was getting tired of the angst and they came out in collared shirts and plaid and I was like mother they can't be angsty they're wearing plaid. (: They sang Lions and my mom was so excited she knew a song. Oh my mother.

Last act was manchester Orchestra and they were SUPERAWESOMELYAMZINGSPECTACULAR! They started out with a depressing song, but transferred quite well to mean everything to nothing and then after a few songs they'd switch to like a virgin losing a child. It was amazing, they played shake it out and the entire crowd was shaking and nead nodding and oh it was amazing. and then right after that they played THE RIVER ahh favorite song. I was worried since they hadn't played it that they might not but they did and it was amazing and i recorded the "oh god i need it, for i was wrong again, take me to the river and make me clean again oh my god, make me clean again" part for steelio and coggs. I doubt they'll understand the recording but hopefully they can make it out. It was just amazing and then they played like, how to describe this, a hardcore acoustic version of the only one, and it was amazing. when they were drinking some guy asked how they were and he was like good so in the song instead of the oringinal version he sang "I am the only one that thinks i'm going crazy to answer that question dude" i was like :D lol. and he put in little extra parts and it was amazing. and I'm not even sure how many times I have said amazing by now but that is like the only word my small vocabulary can fill in to describe how truly fantastic last night really was. And tey played a brand new song that they were going to record over the summer. I loved the opening line " I was born an April Fool" aghh, genius. (:

So mom and I are heading down to Portsmouth/Virginia Beach to meet my dad for lunch and galavant throughout the town. We might go to the aquarium which i am soo excited for. I hope they have octopi and turtles!

:D

so on OBrother's myspace it says that the unnamed, foreign, shirtless, angsty band is called Biffy Clyro. weird name. eh? none of these bands sound as angsty we=hen they record. i feel so lied to.-__- haha. so time to get dressed, laterr.

too bad your momma couldn't give you a good face.

2010-03-31T22:03:00.003-04:00

do you know what i subconsciously do? well besides filling in "wow i can get sexual too" beats when i hear a telephone ring or bite my straws...
i make little mental lists of random facts about myself and people i know.
tonight while i lay in bed with cramps of a lifetime + nausea i'll attempt to type some down, most likely nothing will come since i am actually taking the time to do this but whatever. i'm too keyed up to sleep. so with josie and the pussycats playing in the background and deez nubz curled up at my side i begin.

+ i retain useless bits of information no one really cares about
+ i hate leading the way in public places, if we are somewhere i'll make you go in front of me
+ i walk looking down so i can see if i'll step on anyone's shoes
+ i love racist jokes
+ every time i catch a cold or my stomach hurts i think i am going to die, paranoid much?
+ when i people watch i wonder what it would be like to be married or be in a relationship with random people
+ i own a unhealthy amount of vhs tapes that a watch on a normal basis
+ i think plastic surgery will solve all my life problems
+ i've been flirting with vegetarianism since sixth grade, and in sixth grade i stopped being a vegetarian so i could eat a hot dog.
+ i like to claim that i loathe harry potter and twilight even though i have read all the books and at one point or another enjoyed them immensely.
+ i hate hot topic and avoid going in there at all costs
+ my favorite movie is constantly changing between movies and i can't keep track of them. right now it's josie and the pussycats.
+ when i see a person's handwriting and like it i try to mimic it, mostly with no success, into my own handwriting.
+ i'm probably not friends with half the people i know, i just tolerate them.
+ i hate confrontation
+ i wish i was creative, i'd trade almost anything for an artsy side
+ painting my room orange is one of the biggest regrets in my life
+ i have this theory that they don't let ugly people into CNU
+ because i lack originality once i see someone do something i really want to try it, i like being like characters in books and movies.
+i'm a notorious complainer
+ i read the weirdest books, i'm a geek when it comes to horror/scifi/fantasy/romance books
+i love fashion. i know for a fact that if i was thinner i could have a high chance of being best dressed at school, no lie.
+i pick up accents and phrases really quickly, i won't even mean to, but i'll start saying things other peoplel say without meaning it.
+ i am dead scared of the future
+ i panic when i drive somewhere by myself for the first time, even if it is down the road, i get all shaky and my stomach hurts.
+ i consider myself one of the worst drivers on the planet
+i never want to do anything or go anywhere by myself. Like school events, concerts, or club activities if one of my friends isn't going to be there, i'm not going.
+ i wish i was rich almost everyday in my life
+ i can't keep anything clean for over a week
+ i don't think any of the chorus kids can sing songs other than like classical, chorus like pieces.
+ i'm so insecure it's not even funny.
+ i pretend to be weirded out or appalled when one of my friends does something embarrassing in front of a higher level classmate, but i actually really don't care.
+ i hate having pictures being taken of me that show my bottom half.
+i get jealous really easily, it's quite pathetic.
+ i want a bunny so super bad.
+ i think i have more junior friends than senior friends and that bothers me.
+ i have this fear of being on boats.
+the scariest movie i have ever seen was Mars Attacks! which is actually a comedy. i saw the scene where the aliens turned an entire army into dust with laser guns and was scared for weeks.
+i have never seen a rocky movie, a rambo movie, a terminator movie, a karate kid movie, or star trek movie.
+ i learn how to do most things by youtube how to videos
+ if i don't have a class or lunch with someone i'll probably stop talking to them even if we were really close the previous year
+when i see a poorly dressed thin person i always think "if i had your body i would dress so much better, you don't deserve it" (mean much? ;/)
+ i like to maintain what my fan page count is, i never am a fan of over 50 things on facebook.
+ i'm a huge closet nerd, like really huge closet nerd. i had a runescape.
+ i like to consider myself a hopeless romantic.
+ i love thrifting for things, i could furnish a house with the things i find.
+ i love old, vintage, victorian things.
+ i could never be famous, i hate public speaking, but i like to think that someone would read one of my blogs or tweets and i'd have my own little group of fans... but not really at the same time?

yeah, that's like 45 minutes worth of blurbs and if i want to be able to wake up tomorrow at 620 to do my hair i need to sleep.
i mean it's 11:02. D: oh godd.

Hardin Day tomorrow. (: Spring Break Friday afternoon. (:

this is going to be the longest week ever.

2010-03-30T15:12:00.003-04:00

it's only tuesday and spring break is so close yet so farrr.
i don't even want to go to senior breakfast really, but mother is making me. it is just going to suck bum anyways why bother.

and i'm sick which is making everything seven times more worse.

so to match my wishful thinking.

i could listen to him sing forever.

2010-03-28T19:52:00.002-04:00

oh and this kid too. (:

this song is goregous.

2010-03-25T18:51:00.001-04:00

did you ever have one of those days where you just wanted to die?

2010-03-25T18:29:00.002-04:00

yeah, me too.
it's been happening a lot lately to say the least.

@therobertmorris

2010-03-24T15:54:00.003-04:00

looooove.

no matter which way you go

2010-03-23T17:21:00.001-04:00

no matter which way you stay
you're out of my mind
speaking of tegan and sara, they are on honda civic tour + paramore this july.
i might attend.

2010-03-18T15:33:00.004-04:00

The mountains seceded. The light and dark depleted.
We lost Adakias, but regained our science.
Our world was finally reunited.
So this is my cue of where to leave you.
Now it's your story to retell and pass on.
Because an idea is only relevant if it's being thought upon.
So remember, never surrender.
'Cause the unrelenting constancy of love and hope
Will rescue and restore from any scope.

i must prepare

2010-03-18T14:44:00.000-04:00

for the testing that will be going on at five today.
i have to mentally prepare myself for the extremely hot car ride that i will take to further my dream of attendin gcommunity college.

i really need to put some more effort into my future.

to correspond with my shitty mood

2010-03-16T15:23:00.003-04:00

meet my shitty picks.
say hello to what i consider the worst.

2010-03-15T17:06:00.008-04:00

"a human being is part of a whole,a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something seperated from the rest --a kind of optical illusion of his consiousness. The delusion is a kind of prison for us...our task must be to free ourselves from the prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

"life is like riding a bicylce. to keep your balance, you must keep moving."

--albert einstein.

eating yogurt

2010-03-15T15:22:00.002-04:00

after a refreshing leftover olive garden for lunch, i was sooo hungry. olive garden tastes good no moatter what i mean for real, the leftovers are just as good as the when you order them.

i'm updating to avoid doing prob and stat homework, really don't feel like doing that. don't feel like cleaning either and that is option two.

so i got two dresses yesterday. i'm pretty nervous slash pumped. i 'll probably need a shrug for the easter dress but whateverrr.

i'm am so freaking tired and i have the jason and the argonauts test tomorrow plus the results of the national latin exam D: ughh, nervous. i'm quite curious on how bad i did. I was only 100% sure of one answer -- Medea.

i should nap, but i probably won't.

happy ides of march, valete omnes (:

2010-03-13T19:27:00.001-05:00

fuck my poor/fat life.

WINN.

2010-03-12T17:24:00.002-05:00

love.

2010-03-12T17:10:00.001-05:00

macbook pro

2010-03-12T15:50:00.002-05:00

i love you so
oh macbook pro

first blog on the mac of wonder, goodness this thing is so amazing like AHH(mazing)
i'm so tempted to like, i don't know do something bold with it like get a video chat like device so i can talk to david on it or something, i mean i probably am (but no longer) the only person that has 1) never owned a webcam and b) seen the hangover.
i might be going to the movies tomorrow with manders if we are still on for that and then chinese and rita's later with the M squared. I'm glad I am back to hanging out with coggsworth outside of classes and school. and then later on i might be going to demi's birthday party, maybe. i'm uber paranoid that i won't know anyone and it'll be awkward, but one never knows do they?

sigh, i am so tired, still. i never got around to my nap that i told myself i would take... it basically turned into an extra long bath where I finished my latest bathtime novel.

you see, i have a book that i read only in the bathtub, usually romance novels because i am too ashamed to actually read them in public.

yeahh, i went there.

apparently

2010-03-10T17:25:00.002-05:00

there was a bomb threat and the school library caught on fire today.
good thing i skipped ;D

just got back from VCU, i love richmond it was the first time i had ever been up there and i love the hustle andn bustle of the city fo realz. and i purchased a new sweatshirt.

i totally forgot about the announcement over the amazingness of the day and even though i had to spend it in the presense of nicholas, the poster child (D:) i really enjoyed myself.

there is a torrid in the lynhaven mall, holla. clothes shopping!
ANDDDDD
if i lose 20 pounds and get a semester A in Latin my mom says i can get A BUNNY!!! AJGGUHAGODighaig!!

I know the excitement! it will be hard, but i hope hope hope i can do it!
ANDDDD
I got my macbookpro today, god i love it so much, i haven't even turned it on but i love it so muchhh.!

sigh, good day. good day.

(:

dang it

2010-03-10T07:25:00.002-05:00

toootally fell asleep at like 7 last night waiting for my parents to bring home dinner, the cooking network is the perfect lullaby for a tired teen.

plus the background fro all of them is gay pattinson, so there will only be one today.
oh, and exciting announcment when i get back from VCU today ! :D

oh god

2010-03-07T19:55:00.003-05:00

i would be so poor if there was a torrid with a decent drivingn distance...

2010-03-07T19:23:00.004-05:00

so i have found three prom dress possibilities.

i really love the rose one and the blue one.

i've even decided shoes and everything + hair + accessories.

i really am putting too much thought into this.
starting my exercise and diet routine tomorrow, well actually today with my cardio and eggie burger... calorie splurging on asian for dinner tonight sushi, yumm.

so here it goes.

flower dress

blue dress

i'm not even sure if i even like the tan one that much?

blaaaaaa
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2010-03-07T15:52:00.004-05:00

RIP LOGAN

MARCH 28, 2008 - MARCH 7, 2010

2010-03-06T14:06:00.001-05:00

death and i are connected.

death is cold.
i am cold.

death is tired.
i am tired.

death is stiff.
i am stiff.

modern science

2010-03-02T15:50:00.001-05:00

i put my faith in your capable hands.

it's time

2010-03-01T16:29:00.002-05:00

for the monthly migrane, let the fun begin.

but on the plus side i get moe's for dinner because travis wouldn't stop talking about it in latin.

bring on the sweet burrito lovin'.

mandersss

2010-02-25T14:50:00.002-05:00

i need to do something with her pronto.
deprivation nationnnn.

pshh, screw rules I'm going over now. I'll call first.
yes, make sure she's home... THEN... i'm going over.

yesss, it's all coming together.

afterwords, menchville rocks with steelio, if i can find six dollars laying about the house.

i wonder if we even still have the secret stash of quarters in my parent's room?

sashay away

2010-02-23T16:30:00.002-05:00

i wonder how

2010-02-19T15:18:00.001-05:00

i am going to purchase the April edition of cosmo without being uncomfortable buying something with in all caps bold print: "the sex article we couldn't describe here"

this will be interesting.

my hair

2010-02-18T20:48:00.001-05:00

it looks like shit
something must be done pronto
ehh, too lazy.

but i won't do it in the morning so, TO THE STRAIGHTENER.

i'm

2010-02-17T16:44:00.001-05:00

"i'm going to gauge my ears, peirce my lip, get an industrial, where heavy make up, and darken my outlook on life."

"you go on and do that."

i let you down

2010-02-17T16:27:00.002-05:00

but with valuable excuses, like writing three papers. but nevertheless, here it goes.

2010-02-15T20:03:00.001-05:00

everybody deserves to be adored
why would you settle for less
when the world gives you more?

i hate when

2010-02-15T19:59:00.001-05:00

people lie to me.
even the little white ones.

hypocrisy at its finest.

happy valentines day.

2010-02-14T08:53:00.001-05:00

my gift?
a massive stomach ache.
i though we were over this stomach?

but i did invest in a hair dryer, so i'll do that. then i'll frost the cupcakes. then i'll, oh there is no way i can finish this in 36 minutes. TO THE KITCHEN!

oh blog

2010-02-12T20:48:00.003-05:00

i just posted the first chapter of my story on wattpad.
ahh, i'm just regretting it. I mean I'm not a good writer, I don't have the elegant writing style of steelio or the witty sarcasm and mannerisms of all the authors that I read.

stupid delusional fantasy of maybe someone enjoying it making me want to post it. i'm horrible at taking criticism, I'm not ready for this.

I should take it down.
Shouldn't I.

AHHH.
I'm obviously freaking out.

No one cares about what I write, what is the worst that could happen no one ever reads it? That would be a relief? Oh I don't know, if I knew I was going to Spaz like this I never would have put it up.

AHHH.

the source of my ails.

2010-02-12T14:28:00.001-05:00

-- a sinus infection in the making.
i now have medicine so I won't be missing school... unless we have more snow days.
mother has told me that it is going to snow tomorrow, monday, and tuesday.
well this is unfortunate.

greet what i do when i get bored.

2010-02-10T16:38:00.001-05:00

despite

2010-02-09T19:40:00.003-05:00

what i say, i love my life i really do.
i'd love it more if i was thinner, but that is for another day.

SALVE.

2010-02-09T17:31:00.003-05:00

"Welcome to the 'Mothership' Lady GaGa."
"It doesn't look like she wants to be here."
"She does she's just playing one of her 'Lovegames'."

i love my latin iii class, i really do.

--

2010-02-09T14:43:00.001-05:00

i'm so tired.
my head hurts so bad.
my ears are ringing.
i can't eat or i'll get nauseaus.
i'm so thirsty.

end sick rant.

on a brighter note.

guess what day it is? tuesday!

eileen

2010-02-08T22:15:00.000-05:00

We walk down a dock
and the water is cold,
You want me to
escort you.

How I'd love to go
swim with you in death,
but my heavy heart
won't let me tread.

I must stay
on the shore.
I am young,
my blood is warm.
I can take you this far
Now, my love, we must part.

i can sum up

2010-02-08T20:10:00.006-05:00

my entire friendship with amanda in five photos.
this idea comes from h todd.

well, actually make that six.

i'll do a david one later, i promise.

my head is pounding.

2010-02-08T13:22:00.002-05:00

and the peanut butter crackers i ate for lunch are threatening to rear their ugly head.

today has consisted of sleeping and wattpad. i'm going to hop in the tub and soak.
soaking would be good.

nataliedee.com

hope.

2010-02-07T17:21:00.002-05:00

today when driving i considered pulling out into oncoming traffic, bad day would be an understatement, but don't call the councilors just yet. it was a lapse of judgement; i'm fine. i really am.

who was the coolest ninth grader you knew?

2010-02-06T19:34:00.003-05:00

i'm pretty sure you'll have to say me because of this.

valencia apparently is not authorized for my itunes anymore, those bitches. And itunes has refused my knowingly right password so I had to get a new one. Thinking that my ID question would be something like my cat's or something like that, I clicked the question tab to get my new passcode.

The question was a panic! at the disco song lyric.
My 18 year old self has never been prouder of my 14 year old self as much as I was today.

I still can't reauthorize it so I have no idea what I am going to do.
Cross Fingers.

just got back from steelio's,

2010-02-06T13:45:00.003-05:00

and am sitting here eating a 'THE BIG BOX!' of mike and ike's. We, my family and I, went to Target and The Waffle House. I must be making up for the lack of eating I did yesterday.

And guess what I found!

fruit snacks without gelatin! annie's is my savior.

Probably going to go wattpad and watch movies for the rest of the day. I love the snow I really do, but can't it wait until sunday night?

ABC

2010-02-03T15:58:00.002-05:00

airplanes.
balloon animals.
catagories.
dipthongs.
e!
fastidious.
goldfish.
hairspray.
igloo.
jackals.
karma.
llamas.
monsoon.
necromancy.
octopi.
paritdges.
quincy.
rescue rangers.
static.
testosterone.
ugly.
vase (pronounced v-ahh-zzz).
walrus mustache.
x marks the spot.
zebras.

i hope this answers all your questions.

2010-02-03T14:28:00.002-05:00

as valentine's day quickly approaches i hope you find this helpful on getting that certain someone to like you.

best wishes. xox

2010-02-02T21:45:00.001-05:00

You move through my body like an ocean
Didn't take you long to get to my heart

nostalgia

2010-02-02T14:16:00.008-05:00

Do you know what I miss?
Going to the supermarket with my mother and having to buy jam for my peanut butter and jellys.
It wasn't something that happened too often, but when it did it was a treat. I would stand on my tippy toes and squwat low to the floor trying to take in all the different glass jars. Would I choose the Pokemon jars, the Pooh jars, or the dinosaur jars? The best things about these were that afterwards they were then converted into cups for drinking. Many a time I remember getting a flavor I was not fond of just so that I could have a certain character, because unfortunately Pikachu never came in the grape variety.

I still have them sitting in my cabinet, right now I am drinking orange juice out of a Snoopy and Lionel; I wish they still made fun jars like that rather than the plastic ones nowadays.

home seet home.

2010-02-02T10:20:00.002-05:00

it's good to be back.
i just spent the entire weekend over at amanda's because of the snow, if we had known there would not have been school today I probably would have stayed another day. But it's good to be home, my snow in my lawn is still perfectly in tact since i haven't been here to frolic in it.

sad news is that i haven't seen any icecicles.

i have no idea what to do with myself today, a five day weekend is pushing it don't you think?

OH, btw:
i didn't forget, even though you probably did.