i'm green.

i have decided today that i will never get in trouble with the law, ever. For one reason though: Community Service. I could never do that, it's either really cold or hot and you're working mostly on landscaping. frown.

just got back from lunch, it was horrible. fridays apparently does not cook their own food but heats up what is in packages because they can't get the bacon out of their mac and cheese. I was so upset I cried, so after I basically yelled at the waiter, politely i might add, that i want the mac and cheese and i'll pick the bacon out, he brings out my food. The thought was kind, but was greatly overlooked by me on how disgusting it tasted. He gave me penne with melted bleu cheese all over it. It was disgusting. I did enjoy however, what happened upon my initial shock. He said, "we don't have many items that are vegetarian friendly. We have seafood." Fish is meat you fool.

face palm. i pity the waiter though, i just wouldn't cooperate and he was trying to be nice.
poo on me.

I'm off to watch coraline. (:
it was on sale at targhetto for thirteen dollahs, I could not resist.

latin

i should study that for tomorrow.
after watching these you should too.
not latin, but your exams... whatever
just watch them.

instead

of studying for my math final i am on her.
i just tookcoglio home we went to the gas station but my speed pass isn't working ): so we just came back here and ate, i made spaghetti.
i think the agenda for today is work on my novella and do some dishes and then maybe brush up on beowulf and math or something like that.

listening to manchester orchestra, roisin murphy, and paramore a lot more lately. new depressing paramore, not that other stuff.

Question: What do you do for fun when you are bored? I find myself drawn to quizes and surveys on facebook.



i think i'll post one of those five things every week. so you can get familiar with me. i feel as though i never really show how i really am with people. maybe this will help. good icebreakers.

dear cupid,

i know you aren't santa, but could you get me this poster for valentines day?
it currently ranks higher on my list than a boyfriend.
kthanksbye(:

ps. if you are feeling generous hook m. steele up with one too.

lots of love, victoria.

oh blog

how i missed you, my internet has been acting so weird lately.
today i didn't get home until around 5:30, i went to the mall and had a fee burrito from chipoltes which was rather amazing, and then went to hot topic not amazing, and then hung out with gabriella and we walked over to john's house and watched watchemen for a few before heading back.

i have my government midterm tomorrow, and nothing in stagecraft. i have yet to decide if i want to stay or not. i probably will for giggles.

maybe i'll hustle money from my mother and have chic fil a for lunch (:
or maybe i'll go to m. steele's. it's whatever.

i have done zilch today

so tonight will be action packed with cleaning, bathing(THANKGOD), and government.
i have this massive stomache ache probably due to the fact that i have eaten nothing but a box and a half of chic fil a fries, popcorn, granola, and a fruit cup.

i'm tired, probably because of lethargy and my tub is draining really slow.

but at least i can take a bath a read something, anything to lift my spirits. I'm still upset about yesterday, but not really? I just feel down. must be because my lack of sleep.

0.

energy.
happiness.
hope.
patience.

that church has gone to shit.
i don't like being hit on by huge black men younger than me.
i don't like not having any friends there.
i don't like how people treat me and the other adults disrespectfully.
i don't know why i even bother continuing to go.

i maybe will go on that mission trip in the summer.
i maybe will never return.

it all depends.

i give up.
you win.

sorry for the highly depressing post, i just need something i can't place my finger on.

i'd hate to leave you like this so watch these.

Just tune in, turn off, drop out, drop in, switch off, switch on, and explode.

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there
I'll beg you nice from my knees
When the world treats you way too fairly
It's a shame i'm a dream

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I think I'll pace my apartment a few times
And fall asleep on the couch
And wake up early to black and white re-runs?
That escaped from the mouth

Oh-Oh

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning
And just relive the start
And maybe then we'll remember to slow down
To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you
All I wanted was you

thank goodness, this second longest week of my entire life is over.

yeah, and i heard jizz(ed?) in my pants for the first time.
i like that song.
a lot.

GAHH

just finished reading 41 chapters of dinner with a vampire. i am so excited for her to update. eeeeeep. this chick really needs to go intro the book business becauase she has an amazing style and is sooo sweet. moving on though from my self proclaimed nerd-dome.

i had a heart to heart with gabster and i got some things off my chest and it was good to talk to someone who felt the same way as me in some situations. and i'm going to lie to my mom because i can't seem to find my excuse note for the 21st. whoops so i'll tell her i turned it in and so forth. i skipped first today, no way was i going to take that government test unprepared and a bonuse poplin wan't even there. Kara and i are going to work on our project after school tomorrow so that will be chill.(: this week is just taking forever. i can't wait for the weekend even though i have nothing to do.

so for the remainder of the day i will browse wattpad and read stories and finish the night off with some no fear macbeth shakespeare. sounds like a plan to me.


god bless these kids they are so adorable. click photo, yes?

rediscovering

razia's shadow and reading wattpad. my latest story? dinner with a vampire. did i mention i'm a vegetarian? i'm on chapeter six and there at least 30 more chapters to go. I'm digging it so far, witnessing murders, almost getting killed my a giant squid, and falling for vampire royalty? plus bashing on twilight. oh how my tender heart beats fondly. or something along those lines. mmmm, so this week is going agonizingly slow and on top of that i am not sure if i have a government test tomorrow. oh noes. time to facebook saruhh.

Manchester Orchestra B Sides.

God knows you're on my mind
I can't tell him otherwise
God knows it's only time
Before I break the chain in my eyes
Fear keeps you hiding at night
And the creatures play ball outside
Chances are slim we are right
But I'd never think it any otherwise
So we'll find the answers in time
And the bodies pile up sky high
And I'll sail this ship towards the sky
But I'll end all alone on the other side
And if you could pull that rope just a little higher
We could dangle alone like a firefly

So Jimmy I've heard the voice of God
And he whispered fear is logical
And he said it's magic, wonderful
And he swears to him it's wonderful
And the lake you speak of, magical
So I skip stones on it, practical
And I make sure we're both wonderful

You're a brother and that's alright
You're a brother and that's alright
You're a brother and that's alright
We're brother it makes it right
Cuz his blood is so red in spite
Of the way that our sharp teeth bite
Oh the way that our sharp teeth bite
In each other during the night
With the creatures that play outside
We're the creatures that play outside

Cuz Jimmy I've heard the voice of God
And he whispered fear is logical
And the words that we heard aren't repeatable
And the thought that could kill comprehendable

And we're brothers and that's alright
And we're brothers and that's alright
And we're brothers and that's alright
Yeah, we're brothers until we die


AHHmazing.

sooo, i downloaded this new app via my ipod touch called wattpad and it's basically british fanfiction and reall books, you need wifi to use it (those bitches) but i am so in love with it. maybe it's my inner nerd coming out, but i love reading all the stories and i get all excited when a new chapter gets posted to a story i like. some of it is a tad raunchy, but over all it is completely amazing. and i am sooo lame for saying it. beetahwah(btw), it's also online at http://wattpad.com .

share in my nerd-dom.

oh god i love this.

but the bloopers aren't worth your time.

mmmm

hello james marsden.











i love him.
ecspecially in 27 dresses and enchanted.
superb.

Word to the snug

Who beat my high score on tap tap revolution extreme by randomly hitting the screen to the beat of the song. I'm not sure how I feel about this...

- posted via iPod (:

wake up in the morning feeling like m. steele.

i love finding out that random and complete strangers read my blog(: i don't know why either it just make me feel important that someone cares about what i write.

today two hour delay.
why? no idea, but as soon as i got katie's text i was outtt. i was lame and sat there in bed reliving? the last part of my dream to see if i could finish it, but alas it was gone and it was replaced by me driving around and gabriella wanting me to shop lift ostentatiously at target... then some guy started ghetto dancing beside me, but i'd rather not consider that any farther. but i reallly wanted to know how the other one would end. I was hiding with these group of strangers in my house from the vampire zombies that were trying to capture us and take us to their leader... now put into written words it seems much lamer than it really was... ):
sorry for the gooberoid moment.

I'm messaging David, I like talking to him, it really has been too long since I had last spoken with him. I really suck at this long distance relationship friendship thing stuff.

and in english we are reading Macbeth, it is sort of like peppermint fruity gum, I really don't know if I like it or not.

So do you want to hear the lamest thing I have done all week? Are you ready for this? So this week has been uber tiring and I haven't been in the mood nor had enough time to do my hair and makeup in the morning. Well, Danny, this kid in my government class wasn't there on the two days we had the class, and I said to myself he'll probably show back up when I actually get ready in the morning. So, Tuesday passed, Wednesday passed, Thursday passed and then this morning we had the delay and I was like oh i have time! So I did my hair and makeup this morning and he was standing next to the car parked next to me in morning... WEIRDD, and slightly lame, STUFF.

yeah...
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awkward.
bye.

creative outlet.

sigh. i am so tired and so ucky lately. like don't even know what i should do with myself anymore. I need to learn how to do something to fill up my free time and be somewhat productive. i'm considering knitting or crocheting so i can make scarves and socks and other winter necessities since it is SOCOLDOUTSIDE. I fer seriously want spring to come so i can go outside and exercise and work on my impossible to get tan. and i want to wear my tights with my skirt and wellies without freezing my arse off.

that's it i guess. normal everyday things. normal everyday me wanting to gouge my eyes out sort of thing.

preach it, hayley todd.

"standing your ground DOES NOT EQUAL mean, or being a jerk. it means that i’m willing to stick up for myself so no one can take advantage of me..."

today was okay.

scratch that -- pretty good.
logan finally got his new tank for christmas, in celebration of his 2 year birthday coming up soon (:

little mermaid statue for real.
it was such a hassle getting it, but while in vah-bah, (my first trip ever!) we stopped at the virginia weslyan campus and drove around there. It was nice, small, but nice... sigh, i hate thinking about the future. I always start to panic.

BUUUT that isn't why i posted this is why.


before


after

i feel

as though i should make one of those new years resolution lists.
but i never stick with them anyways so why bother?
but it will be fun, i'll update this later, when inspiration hits.

until then, i leave you with my life goals.
as of summer 2009.



funny what you run into when going through old photos.

i highly enjoy

the tinting feature on picnic.
like ahh, i think i am in love it just adds somethingn to my pictures, you know?
i'm not into all the photoshop i don't want to look like my self anymore, but i like how it yeah.

call me vain and state the obvious of how i should value my plain appearence and not edit how i look.
or be like those people that are like "you over edit your pictures!"
it's whatever. i really don't caree.

but if you are willing not to mock me here are some snapshots of my edited self.
btw, i only adjust coloring, not like blemishes or wrinkles, or eye bags, or other things like that.





not that extreme you see?
(:

happy

one year blog.
thanks for letting me rant to you about trivial and frustrating issues.
i hate you, no blog that wasn't aimed at you, but i needed to say it.
whatever, i'm exhausted.
i doubt i'm making much sense anyways.